Self-Reflection Journey

Is it a fair analysis to say that my mind is perceiving my actions as leading to a similar tragic outcome, given that I produced a huge activation, which was the largest success of my career, that opened on my mother's birthday, and two weeks later, she died in her sleep? Now, when I attempt to work on large, challenging projects like this one, I can start the process creatively but have great trouble following through on distributing it to people who could help me execute it.